Still on track

I am doing great. The jouney is smooth at this point, without any bumps in the road. I lost 4 pounds this past week! I have been keeping track of points online through weightwatchers.com. We are going on a little mini-vacation this weekend and I am kinda worried about it since we will be eating dinner at a friend's house one night and lunch at a restaurant the next day....but I am taking healthy snacks and am going to make the best choices I can with the meals. I am going tonight to buy a belt....my pants are pretty lose. I made an appointment for a consultation with a surgeon for August 24th to see what it will cost to do my stomach, etc.

Once again, a lack of posts means not doing good...until the last few weeks

I got wayyyy off track (once again). I finally have turned things around. It is crazy that in 4 months I gained back 30 pounds! Holy cow! I have lost about 20 in the last 4 weeks though. I am eating better than I have in a long time and feeling great. I am not working out other than walking really. I know it might sound bad, but I do not want to gain muscle (even if I am losing fat) because my numbers won't be where I want them to be on the scale...so at this point I am focused on losing before working out. I do enjoy my walks though. I have been counting my calories and keeping track of points through weightwatchers.com. I am also trying to not let my extra skin on my belly discourage me too much.....it sucks because clothes don't look cute with that skin there....but I can't get it taken care of until I get down in weight enough. oh well, I will get there!

New Year same old place...but not for long ~fingers crossed~

(Picture taken at Christmas weight 185 pounds!)

I guess I should notice a pattern....when I do good I blog more about it...when I do bad I quit....thus no posts since before Thanksgiving! I have got to get this thing back on track! Seriously. I got depressed about a bunch of stuff and let it get me down and then got back in the old habit of eating to make it better....only temporarily of course! I feel so much better when I am doing good but yet don't do it. I got into a "fight" with my dad.....by which I mean a disagreement which left me feeling like the 15 year old child who was hurt by her alcoholic dad and ate to get rid of the feelings....he is no longer an alcoholic...but I go back to where I was as a child/teenager when we have a disagreement. But, we are going out to lunch this week and hopefully all is okay. Bill started back on the crazy schedule at work that leaves him gone a lot and puts a lot more stress on me which didn't help. My van messed up and cost almost $3,000 to fix which messed up the budget...so I started looking for a babysitting kid and had no luck with that which stressed me out more. (God did provide though.....just not in the time frame I thought it should have been in...and I start in 3 weeks with a new little baby on a great schedule that allows me time to go to the gym most days before she comes). Life basically felt like it was falling apart and instead of praying about it I "dealt" with it by feeling sorry for myself and eating.

I am determined to do this....I just need to turn my worries over to God....and then let them go knowing he will handle them (not necessarily the way I think either).

I will work better on my quiet time and be praying for all those who are on this journey with me also!

Carla

Just an update...no fancy title

So, everything is still going good. I stayed up late Monday night on the phone with one of my friends and then was super tired Tuesday and had talked myself into skipping the gym and just taking a nap in the afternoon.....but I got to feeling guilty by the evening that I hadn't done any exercising so I pulled out my biggest loser video and did it last night at 9pm. Then went to bed and got up this morning and went to the gym to do my weight machines and cardio. This afternoon I was debating about stopping and getting a candy bar; but talked myself out of it and came home and ate a few pretzels instead. I was down to 191 today! If I keep up I will be at the next goal weight by Jan. 1st! Happy Wednesday!

Stuck in the same place; but yet moving forward at the same time!

My weight is stuck at 192 (40 pounds lost) but yet I have been getting stronger and feeling much better. I have worked out everyday this past week. I think I am getting addicted to it. I woke up the past two days and went straight to the gym. I do 3 miles a day (combination of bike and treadmill) along with weight machines every other day. 7 weeks till Christmas and 8 weeks until the first of the year! Have a great week!

193 today! Yeah! I have meet with my trainer and have a workout plan in place. I can bench press 120 pounds max and leg press 320 max! I am really strong for my size! My heart is in great shape also with a low resting heart rate. I meet with him again the first Monday in December and hope to have made big improvements. It is good because he measured the percentage of body fat so even though I may not lose a lot of weight due to gaining muscle I will be able to tell how much fat I have lost! I have done workouts everyday except 2! I am very pumped up and looking forward to where I will be at the first of the year! Have a great week!

Doing good so far

I joined the YMCA on Tuesday and have worked out all but one day so far! I am down to 194.5 as of this morning! This is a new low (in atleast 10 years). I feel SO good! Of course yesterday was Halloween and my kids got tons of candy; so the challenge will be to not eat any of it. I made Bill leave it in his truck when he went to work last night so I wouldn't be tempted late at night or if I woke up during the night! Have a happy week!